When You Want To Quit (and you will want to quit)

I am really struggling with everything right now. The constant meltdowns are just getting to be too much. I am not sure I can do this much longer. How do you do all this and not feel like you want to quit? A sweet mom emailed me this question last week. I receive a variation of this all the time. All. The. Time. I...Read More

Depression and Mothering A Child With Special Needs

It's been coming on for a while now. And with good reason. The list of diagnoses and medicines. The boys' meltdowns and anxiety attacks. The constant hypervigilance. The lack of sleep. The loss of any real personal time. And, the intense grief that my youngest is spinning out of control in a mood disorder that has taken over his mind. This time, it didn't...Read More

Special Needs Motherhood Is Lonely Work

I have amazing friends. I do. They are generous and encouraging. They are willing to overlook how many times I ignore their text messages. They make me food, pour me tea, and offer me wine. They are the difference between me completely losing it, and me just partially losing it. They love me, well. And the truth is, they have absolutely no idea what...Read More

Living In Fear Of The Next Bad Thing

Last night, just as the sun was setting, my son had an idea. "Let's build a fire outside and just relax." His enthusiasm was contagious. Although this is typically something I would not do until my husband was home (he is officially in charge of all things outdoorsy and fire-y), the sight of now both of my sons, jumping up and down with excitement,...Read More

When I Don’t Know How To Help My Child

It was 4 o'clock in the afternoon when it started. My son had been outside, working on a pond project in our backyard. He came inside, clearly overheated and tired. About 30 minutes later, he began speaking really fast, in sentences that didn't quite make sense. He kept talking, in an endless stream of consciousness, looking a little panicked - as if he knew...Read More